Seth Meyers is grateful he didn’t burn any bridges during his time on Saturday Night Live. Amid the NBC sketch comedy show’s landmark 50th season, the Late Night host reflected on some of the “shamefully petty” exchanges he had with fellow staffers during his 2001-’14 run on SNL.

Just ask Seth Meyers. The late night host, who eventually found his place and landed a long-running talk show, recently stopped by NPR’s Wild Card for an interview, and during the chat, he got really honest about his acting career and the frustrations he felt.

Seth Meyers opens up about his time on Saturday Night Live, his relationship with his parents, and how ambition led him away from his strengths.